Four months have passed yet here I am, still in big disbelief. The days that we pass together seem to fly so fast, but it feels like we have known each other for so long. Time flies so fast when I am with you, and I couldn’t be happier for these past four months baby. I am the happiest. Your presence is my daily happy pill. I never knew our relationship would develop this much. My feelings for you keep growing bigger and bigger each day, and it still feels like the first day we dated. It feels.. overwhelmingly great. I really wanna cherish these feelings forever.
Baby, thank you so much. HSDKJFS ASTAGA aku belum ngetik apa-apa aja udah berkaca-kaca. But really, thank you Ian. You have been taking a really good care of me.. I’m so sorry I made you worry a few times because of my health. T________T also I’m sorry because I was not in my best condition most of the times this month.. I know I had been super sensitive lately and I’m so sorry if I trouble you. T__________T I kept coming with my problems when I’m sure you had your own problems too. But thank you for being so patient with me, babe.. Thank you for never judging me, thank you for never saying that my feelings were silly and nonsense. Thank you for always accepting me for who I am. Really, what did I do to deserve you in my life? I love you so much, Ian.. I love you more than anything. With you, I can be my truest self.
To be honest.. I don’t know if you are feeling the same but I think this month somehow feels more personal than the rest of the months that we have spent together. I feel like I know you so much deeper and we are opening up to each other so much more than before. And I’m so, so thankful of that. I’m so lucky to have you baby.. I really am the luckiest woman on earth. This month was not easy for both of us; we have our own problems and struggles but I’m always thankful that we always have each other’s back. I really can’t imagine how I’d be without you babe. You never failed to bring warmth into my heart. I still clearly remember how it surprises me and warms my heart at the same time when you knew I wasn’t okay without me telling about my condition at the first place. Do you remember when I told you about my plan that couldn’t work accordingly? I cried so hard reading your messages yang.. No, you didn’t say anything wrong. I was just, veeeery, very touched with your words and I just couldn’t stop feeling so grateful at that moment for having you in my life. You are my primary source of support and motivation. I really don’t know what have I done so good until I deserve you.. You are the only man I’ll ever want. Thank you for taking care of me baby.. Thank you for taking a really good care of me. I really can’t and will not stop thanking you. You are my saviour. I always feel so loved and happy since our day one, and it’s all because of your love. You brought me the greatest happiness I ever felt in my entire life. I’m so happy to be with you baby — only you. You are more than enough for me.
Sometimes it fascinates me when I figured out that we think very alike (kadang persis malah), just like a few days ago when you told me that you were having “everything happens for a reason” mindset and I was like :O WAIT — ME TOO!! That sentence is the one that I’ve been constantly saying to myself and everyone who’s struggling. It surprised me so much because I was writing the same thing just before I texted you and seeing you telling the same thing really brought me to realization that we are truly meant for each other. I can’t help but feeling a strong connection to you. It feels like we are subconsciously connected to each other HSJFHSJFS if that’s possible.. but you know what I mean, right? Because we are connected. :p *is indoctrinating you*
Babe, I just want us to last reaaaallly, really long. That’s all I’ll ever wish, with a happy and healthy relationship of course. Let’s grow together, baby. Let’s stay like this for a really long time. Let’s play hard, and love each other harder. Let’s never stop loving one other. When I think of you, I can only picture a bright tomorrow. I know I’ve said this already but really, that’s what I’m always thinking. You feel like hope. You feel like the warmth of the morning sun.
Happy celebrating our fourth month, my man. I love you. So much.
With love,
Maudy Thalia
To store the song: https://soundcloud.com/maudy-29406760/the-thought-of-you/s-L9IEZaMLke6
